It's hard for me to be ok with this inconsiderate attitude... not like i've never been rude or inconsiderate, I mean, I know that I'm learning too and need to be held accountable. I try to be considerate and I would hate it if I offended someone. I'm just venting because of recent situations.
I feel disappointed and this has been repetitive with different people, different groups of people and situations. And I hate that feeling. I don't want to feel this way. I want to be more understanding, but I'm struggling because I don't know what there is to understand.
Was there a reason for their absence? If so, please tell me. It's probably perfectly logical and everything is fine, but when there's no reason given, no response, no call, nada, and i got nothin'.... it's frustrating. Was everything just talk and people don't mean what they say?! So I can't take them at their word anymore? {then what's the point in having a conversation with them at all} Sorry, is that too blunt?
There's a new song out called Blessings, by Laura Story and when I first heard it, I must say it was only for a second and I flipped the station to something else... which also had nothing I wanted to hear, so I came back to this song playing. I was in the mood for something with more kick to it and this song playing on the radio was so "dainty" I wasn't wanting to listen. I finally left the station alone and let the song play, I'm glad I did because the words are really powerful and it made me think. The last line of the song struck a chord with me. {pun intended}
"What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy? What if trials of this life - the rain, the storms, the hardest nights - are your mercies in disguise?"
I may not agree with what people have been doing lately, but deep down I know there's not a person on this earth who will ever meet all my expectations and never fail me. Only One can truly satisfy. He is the One who always comes when I call, He always answers, He's always there, always listens, always meets my needs.
For those that didn't follow through... for those that didn't show up.... those that were supposed to email about important things and never did... and for those whom I had hoped to become closer friends with just didn't happen... what if they are not meant to be what I had hoped? What if this is God's mercies over me? This is His simple way of protecting me.... thank you Lord for your mercies in disguise.
{trying to be thankful}
