offering my "help"

So I put these little reminders on my phone that continuously go off at random.  I was using the calendar one day and thought "why do I only enter important dates in here? why not other stuff?"  And that's where this all began.  I began plugging in little reminders such as....

Stop trying to do it yourself.

Trust God is working.

Seek first the kingdom of God and He will give you the desires of your heart. 

I need these little reminders to keep me sane... for your sake and mine.  :o)  My worries get the best of me.  I struggle so much with trying to make things happen as I think they should.  {yes, yes... I can be a control freak at times}.  It's hard to just let go.  I want to feel at peace and just know God is working, but my mind gets so wrapped up in what I can do to help or how I can fix things.  I need to remember that God does not need my help.  Sometimes... it's not about us... ok, so it's never about us.  It's all about Him. 

One of my biggest struggles is trusting that God cares about my future... my future spouse, children, having a family, work, etc.  So many times, I feel that these things are forgotten by God.  {wow... vulnerability just kicked into high gear}  He cares about us... even the little things we think He doesn't notice, all those things in our lives that we feel may be insignificant or forgotten by God, He remembers.  The truth is, we are never looked over, we are never forgotten, never put on the back burner. 

Sometimes all we need to do is stand.  To simply stand, be at rest, and let God work.  God is faithful,  He is good, and our mistakes or short-falls take nothing away from His sovereignty.  He does know what He's doing and doesn't need our "help."  My way of helping makes things far more complicated than they need to be and I get in my own way.  You know what God wants me to do?  To worship Him and wait.  Nothing else is needed. 

But my imperfect self constantly feels this urge to "make things happen," "to be busy" and "try harder."  The other day I was praying and just felt this prompting in my heart from the Lord, saying, "why do you doubt who I am?"  Why do I treat God like He can't handle these things that burden me?  Why do I act like I have to do something because He's not!? 

I just have failed to remember who He is.  I have failed to realize that He is working, even when it seems He's not.  He is doing something, He never rests, never grows weary and His will is perfect.  I don't know what else to do now, but to wait and ask for peace {I can't even do that without His help}.  When my heart feels anxious and scared... and all I can do is stand.  I have been told to stand.  To stand and watch Him work in ways I do not yet understand, but will soon see it all come together.

"The Lord will fight for you, you shall hold your peace and remain at rest."  Exodus 14:14

"Look up into the heavens. Who created all the stars? He brings them out one after another, calling each by its name. And he counts them to see that none are lost or have strayed away.
O Israel, how can you say the LORD does not see your troubles? How can you say God refuses to hear your case?  Have you never heard or understood? Don't you know that the LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth? He never grows faint or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. He gives power to those who are tired and worn out; he offers strength to the weak.  Even youths will become exhausted, and young men will give up.  But those who wait on the LORD will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:26-31