This is Our God {Chris Tomlin}

A refuge for the poor, a shelter from the storm
This is our God
He will wipe away your tears
and return your wasted years
This is our God
So call upon His Name
He is mighty to save
This is our God


A father to the orphan, a healer to the broken
This is our God
And he brings peace to our madness
and comfort in our sadness
This is our God
So call upon His Name
He is mighty to save
This is our God

This is the one we have waited for
Jesus Lord and Savior
This is our God
A fountain for the thirsty, a lover for the lonely
This is our God
He brings glory to the humble and crowns for the faithful
This is our God

This song has continuously been on my mind.  I love little reminders that surprise me, reminding me of God's character.  This year has started off a little rough, but it is now April and I'm watching him put all the pieces together with grace and compassion.  One of my favorite lines in this song is "he will wipe away your tears and return your wasted years."  I feel as if my years of "living a Christian life" have not been lived to the fullest, but in fact, sometimes I feel they are wasted years.  I feel like a hypocrite, someone who has been teaching and talking about God, but in my own life, my walk has been inconsistent.  Despite my faithlessness, God is faithful.   This is our God. 

God is teaching me what it means to depend on him and walk with him, for apart from him.... I am nothing.  I may feel as if the years are wasted, but God was preparing me the whole time.  I wasn't always listening... so it's just taken me a little longer.  I have believed the insults, the presumptions about me... if I felt a certain way, then I believed that was who I was.  I believed that I would always be the fearful little girl from my childhood, walking in intimidation, afraid to say how I felt because of constant feeling that my opinion wasn't valid.  God is my healer and restorer of all things, I have literally watched him turn my life {and others} upside down all for his glory and our good.  This is our God. 

God is teaching me about all that He is, that HE lives within me and makes me who I am.  I may be full of flaws but I know the God who lives within me and uses me still.  There is a quiet strength that I can rest in when I believe and trust that God is who He says He is.  He is my comfort in this sadness and peace in this madness.  This is our God. 

He is all I need and I am learning to recognize that in my life.  Every breath, every step, every word spoken from my mouth.... I desperately need to come from him.